Killing Your Darlings

“You have GOT to be kidding me,” I grumbled, pulling into a parking spot at my favorite park. Although it was 5:30 in the evening and the sun wasn’t supposed to set for 2 more hours, the sky was dark and threatening to rain. Begging the Universe to cool her jets for just a bit so I could finish my session, I gathered my things and got out of the car. And as if on queue, the sky opened up, and began to pour.

Every single session I had had that spring and summer had gotten rained out, which resulted in me having to reschedule several of my clients. On this particular day, my client was on their THIRD reschedule. I knew that if I had to reschedule again, I would most likely lose my client. So, rather than risking the session, I called my client and asked her if she was ok moving her session indoors to a studio. Luckily, she was fine with that, so I called my friend Kacey Cole, and asked if I could use her studio. I had NO idea how to use studio lighting, but I met my client there anyways, and kind of winged it. The photos turned out pretty nice, and I actually really enjoyed working in the studio.

Let’s just say, the rest is history. I moved the remainder of my sessions that summer to the studio, instead of on location. Looking back, it was a good decision, because it rained pretty steadily for the remainder of the summer. Before I knew it, I was looking forward to spending time in the studio with my clients, and was exclusively shooting in the studio.

A few months ago, it dawned on me that I wasn’t drawn to shooting outdoors anymore. I started questioning my identity as a photographer. My entire business was built around being an outdoor photographer, and it’s what people knew me for. But shooting outdoors no longer fed my soul. I had such a difficult time letting go of a huge part of me that no longer resonated with who I was as an artist and business owner. A good friend of mine suggested that I “kill my darlings”, by making the leap into this new venture, as shooting outdoors no longer served its purpose.

So, after a lot of soul-searching, crying (yes, really), denial, and advice-taking, I am making the leap! I now only offer studio portrait sessions to my clients, and I could not be more excited.

Thank you to all of my past, present, and future clients for going on this adventure with me! I am so excited to see where this new journey leads.